lonely dark angel

The day when i feel so definetely strong

in the day when i’am alone. ..
nothing just can i do.
it’s likely stuck in the moment
i feel so confuse in that moment
moment that always remind me of her
i think the one thing that i always can do…
just staring at the sky.
i can imagine what i want to imagine
i know i’m very need time on my own. .
the time that no one can disturb me. .
no one. .
so i can imagine that my wish can be granted
the wish to be with her all of the day
together on my own. .

i never thought i’d need her there when i’m alone missing for her smile. ..
just her smile. .
because with that smile,, always can make me feel so strong. .and charm..
i can say for sure. .
that i unconscious love her. .
I love all the things on her,,

i count the step that i take.
i know it’s the time for me
to realize what i always dreaming on her
to make her on my side, ,although just many hour ..
just many hour that can make me so freely look her smile. .
her cold gaze. ..
smeel her parfum. .
that totally so close, just in my side..

huh, , it will be the day that can make me feel so definetely strong ..
i know no defeat,, with her smile in my side ..
i’m not need to cry again. ..

yesterday. .
maybe,, to be the day when i feel so definetely strong
the day that can make me spend all of the time, ,together just with her…
i observe on herself..

black straigh-short hair. .
combed so neat. .
it can shine so brightly
with grey simple t-shirt
red’s flame jacket
blue tight rumpled jeans. ..
with the black absolute sandals..
all of it really fits on her.
she look like a japanese doll
so cute ….
one word just can i say in my heart. .
i’m officially want to embrace her on my shoulder..
so tight..i dont want to lose the woman that i love so sincere anymore. .
but in that time i just can satisfied just can look her smile
so purely. .right targeted on my heart. .

I’ve never felt this way before
beeing together with the woman that i love so close. .although she never notice my feeling for her
maybe just with one word “friend” i can so freely realize one of my wish that i always pray. ..even this word can hurt me so deep …
i want more from her. .
beeing together and share my problem and her problem all of the time
beeing adult together, ,
i’m so happy when i’m beeing accompany by her. .
because beeing together is better than alone. …
beeing together can break all of the lonely mist that always covered me. .

maybe, , until this day come
i’ve never can say my true feeling for her
i want more just to be her friend. .
i want to be somothing special to her. ..
but in it’s way. . i can’t do anything. ..
because love is pure. .
there is no pressure to accept or reject…
nobody’s can’t to determine someone’s love.. .

maybe the best way that can i do now is .
waiting and waiting. ..
i always know that waiting is suck, ,,
but if i waiting for her.. i can ignore all of consecuen.. that i must have to drawed
when i’m waiting for her, ,and then she notice and coming to me. .
it will be the best day when i feel so definetely strong. …

yesterday,,
is the first time,, i hang out with her..
maybe the second,, but i ignore the first time ..
because in that true first time,, i’m not feel love to her yet. .
purely just friend,, there is no mask plotted in my face
but the first time,, give me big influence. .how to i love her ..
she teach me how to love so sincere and tenderly

i grab her hand. .. walking inside me ..
feel so warm in this heart. . this feeling show me. .
the real feeling why when one of your wish granted, ,,
i can say for sure now, ,
this togetherness, ,, give me super power that can make my life more lifely. .
although i have never talk too close to her …and this is the first time ..
her voice was alot softer than i could imagine
when i talk to her,, i believe that i’ve share my problem in the right person. …
even she is just be the listener,, that can never give her idea to solve my problem,,,
but in the time when with her in my side, , i feel so confidence that i can fix my problem myself…
just with her support behind me. ..i swear i’ll be so invincible ,there is no problen can defeat me again and again, ,,
just with her in a few hour ,, my problem can blurred
so i can make an analogy, , beeing together with her in my side in much time,, maybe my problem can be forgotten..
and beeing together with her all of lifetime i have,, maybe there is no more problem facing me…
the time when the problem come,, in that time too i can fix it so easily ..
huh. ..

thanks ,, you are my inspiration, my power recharge, my adoration, my love ,, you mean everything to me……
aishiteru…….zutto,,zutto aishiteru… …